“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”’
2 Corinthians 12:8
How long has it been since I told you all about my life? I feel like forever. It’s been different, and harder than summer was for me. I was thankful for the rest and thankful for feeling so great all summer. Then the beginning of August hit and I started school things and life changed a bit. It got busier and my body got tired.
I have been so blessed to have so many people around me who have prayed for me, written to me and checked on me. I feel so blessed and I needed it. My life has been a bit different the last few weeks. I started school and started ok. But, then I got sick for a couple days, I think with the lower immune system I was getting sick really easily. Which really isn’t me. Last year I didn’t miss one day of school and this year I was already missing school. It’s hard when you are dealing with sickness and your body make you feel weird. But, I was thankful I came out of it with a couple of day before we had to leave for Duke.
Going to Duke was new for Scott and I for lots of reasons, but we were glad we were able to go. They were very organized to have me come in and be a part of what they were doing. I saw 4-5 different people in there which was nice. The new doctor that was there Dina Randezo to see who was very nice and helped me understand what was going on with me. We just hired someone at the doctor’s office here, her name is Shirley Ong and set an appointment coming up who is a Neuro Oncologist . It was nice to meet the people there and let them give us their opinion on what we were doing and how to do what we needed to do best. After we talked to them for a while they told us we were done….the remaining days weren’t needed by the doctors any more. Which was hard to realize. There was nothing else at Duke we needed to do until we got done with a year of chemo.
I am going to be busy taking the chemo pill for 5 days every month. I will also be going in for my MRI every couple months to see how they are seeing what is going on after the radiation and the chemo. We are really praying that as time goes on the shape shrinks and that what the doctors see will be pleasant. Please be praying about that. We don’t need a slow year that doesn’t get cleansing from the Lord and doesn’t give us a huge opportunity to just tell others about the Lord.
We did get to spend a day together while we were near Duke. We were able to look at some places, eat a little food and we enjoyed just being together. Since Scott and I didn’t get to take any trips this summer together, at lease we had a day where we could spend time together and looked at some of the town a bit before we were going to fly home. We went to the chapel on Duke’s campus, looked at the basketball court, we ate lunch on campus, we looked at the old baseball park from the movie “Bull Durham” and we loved seeing all of the sports areas that were there. We finished the night with a movie “Beautifully Broken”. I slept a bunch while I was there and really started sleeping a whole lot more since then.
We were blessed to have my roommate from Mexico who drove over two hours to see us there with her husband and one of their daughters Jane. We had a great time sharing time together and eating at this really old place. We walked around and got ice cream and just loved seeing each other again. Kate had come this summer to see me and visit us. It was such a blessing for us that they would drive and see us again.
I haven’t had a chance to really write too much lately because I have been tired and unable to really be focused when the radiation finished and really made me tired the last few weeks. I am starting to feel better and starting to be able to focus on what is going on with me a little at a time. I used to consider myself someone who could really figure out what I wanted to say and what the Lord desired to say. It’s been harder. I noticed it more this weekend. I had the opportunity to teach Sunday school and I was so excited to start doing it again. My brain was slow and shut off for the few days leading up to teach. I prayed a lot and I was very thankful that the morning of teaching, my brain was at least clearer than normal. It still wasn’t as clear as normal, but the Lord did what He wanted to do and honestly, I just left him in charge. I was thankful….very thankful.
Having started back at school, was harder than I thought. It’s hard when your brain is slower and more tired than it used to be. I have to admit that when I sit in my class and try to teach every day, I felt very behind. It’s hard when I have never been that way and I can’t focus or do what I need to do these things. I am thankful to see the Lord providing for me and continuing to give me everything I need every day. We have been blessed with foods from so many people and people continuing to minister to us. Thank you. I’ve noticed the cards, flowers and gifts have been a constant blessing, because the tiredness is hard to continue to fight against.
One of the things that has encouraged me and makes me smile, are all the students that come and see me in my office. Especially when it’s my girls and their friends. They are always encouraging me with the shirts to remind me that I have Hope and I am a Warrior. I need that reminder everyday. I had worn all of these bracelets to school one day, and two of them were lost. I thought I may have lost them in the field house and the next day one of the softball girls and one of my soccer girls found them both. What a sweet blessing. It made me happy.
We have been really busy since before school started with club soccer. I have been trying to keep the girls growing and engaged, while my brain is trying to stay caught up with training! It’s so crazy how it’s hard for me to say things I know and I have to think longer to know what I’m trying to say. UGH! Thankfully it’s getting better and the girls and their parents have been super gracious and loving to me. I am grateful for the other coaches that want to pray for me and help me. My team was very giving to give me money for foods, airplane tickets and spending money while we were in Duke. So, So sweet. I am blessed.
It really is hard to believe that we are in school already. I have enjoyed getting to know the new students, but I would ask you to pray that I would I have the energy and focus while I’m at school. I don’t ever want to not give my best to everyone, so it’s challenging when I don’t feel 100%. So just pray that I will let go of having to be perfect or look like I know what I’m doing all the time.
The girls are finally getting more excited about the thought of playing soccer in college. I am really praying that they love the game, work hard, and enjoy the process of learning. This was a picture from going to OBU the day before school started.
Well….. One of the other big things this summer we wanted to do was get some stuff done around the house. We had not done much after we built the house, so we decided to go a head and get some of it done this summer. Well, I passed out right before I found out of my cancer and didn’t think doing home stuff during treatment would be a good idea. So we put it to the side. Until school was about to start again and we really decided we needed to get it done. Oh my. We are thankful for Philip Rye and all he did to help us get it all done. We are glad to be almost done and ready to just rest this fall. Now we have some new things in the house and our house is finally painted again.
I would really like to thank everyone for helping me and praying for me. I need the prayers again a lot as I look at trying to wake up again and get my life on track how the Lord desires to use me. He has been so faithful. I wish I could tell you the million things he’s taught me…But, one of the amazing things the Lord has done for me… this summer as I wrote I was writing a ton on warrior angels. Ok, since school started and the Lord knew my time would be less and I would be more tired, I didn’t read about Warrior Angels anymore. And as I read really felt the Lord desired me to be quiet and to rest in Him. He gave me this passage from 2 Corinthians 12:5-7-10.
I will boast about a man like that, but I will not boast about myself, except about my weaknesses. 6 Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say, 7 or because of these surpassingly great revelations. Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Anything that happens is never about me or because of me. The Lord desires to teach me so much and asks and desires me to learn from Him no matter what. And I have to be honest, being busy has made it harder for me to learn from the Lord and to be able to rest. I am choosing to be faithful and give Christ my weaknesses even if it’s not what I would “want.” Thank you to everyone who prays for me and encourages me. I am so thankful in this battle and I need each of you every moment of the day! Thank you Lord for providing for me.