Memories

I’m looking out my window as the swans fly by. The trees are bare, snow is on the ground. To me, it’s winter. This is Alissa again, Nicole’s sister. This year has been hard. In so many ways. But when I look out the window, I smile.  I see my brothers running around and Nicole and I dancing in the sun.

See, when Nicole was little our family had a cabin, up in Brainard MN. Our brothers were shooting BB guns, climbing trees, fishing, and chasing us. Those were the good old days. The ones I remember and I see in the clouds.

Sunset At My Cabin – God’s Painting In The Sky

My family now has a small cabin up in northern Minnesota. We recently build it and have spent a year up there. It has been a remarkable thing. Isolated. Small. But yet, when I see my kids outside smiling, It reminds me of my childhood and it brings me joy. They love it and never want to return back home. Ha! It’s different living up here, then being on vacation. I have had the opportunity to see God’s beauty and take it in. I mean really take it in. I’ve seen our Lord in a different way. He is detailed, purposeful, full of love in every way. He is everywhere. I see the beauty in the squirrels gathering nuts, the bald eagles soaring, the mice pouncing on the grass, the crickets chirping,  the CLEAR starry sky, and watching the baby turtles hatch.

But yet with all the beauty, there is Cancer. Sickness. Tragedy. They all hurt. They are hard. It’s painful. It hurts to go through something personally and hard to watch someone you love go through it. It says, in Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” I know our Father is using Nicole. She is strong. She is courageous. And even in her condition, she is bringing people to Christ. One person at a time. Each and every day.  I see it.  People are hearing her story. God is molding people and refining them as they see Nicole as people are kneeling and asking why. People are turning to our Savior and drawing into Him, for comfort and healing. He is full of love. Nicole would not want it any other way than to be the tool to bring more people to Christ and help them draw near to our Savior.

Queen Ashton Inman and Family

Some of my brothers and I had the opportunity to see two Queens this past weekend. Queen Nicole and her daughter Queen Ashton. It was one of the sweetest moments for Ashton and Nicole. Ashton was Homecoming Queen. Ashton then gave a crown to Nicole too. And Scott held her hand while they snapped a picture. How sweet! What a remarkable accomplishment for Ashton. She was stunning in her dress and it was a memorable moment for her. It was so great to have part of our family there to witness a wonderful moment for her. One of my favorite parts was Nicole sharing a moment with Ashton as they held each other’s hands. There is something special about the relationship between a mother and daughter. I am thankful Nicole could be there and enjoy it. Nicole adores both of her twin girls so much!  It has been so neat seeing God bless the Inmans and use Nicole’s story even in her condition. The Bryant Football team honored her with grey ribbons on the back of their helmet to honor Nicole and for cancer awareness. 

Nicole, Three Brothers and Me

It was so good to have my brothers, Nicole, and I together. I don’t know the last time the siblings just spent time together. When someone is sick or tragedy hits a family, usually they come together and there is more closeness than before. It was a special time for everyone and the presence of Our Heavenly Father, was there. He was felt. Nicole really loved seeing her brothers. They had many laughs. Hugs. Tears. And hands were laid on her. I loved how Nicole was so expressive by the funny things they would say to her. Her eyes would get big and she would look at me. We were both laughing on the inside, saying “our brothers are crazy boys. Ha!” I love my family. Nicole and I always talked about how unique our family is. We enjoy each other, there is no drama or fighting. But we all love being around each other. That is pretty special these days.

In the past couple of weeks, Nicole has received meals, flowers, visits, cards, and hugs from so many people. What a testimony you all have been by sharing your love with my sister Nicole and her family. This has been such a blessing in spite of the situation. All of these acts remind them of the depth of God’s love for them and for me.

Prayer Requests: Prayer for another trip on Tuesday to St. Louis. Pray for safe travels. Pray for ease of travel for Scott and his Mom, Ann, as I know it’s hard to travel with Nicole. Pray for a great appointment.  Also please pray for her arm. It is really hurting her. Pray that they are able to find out how to give her some relief.

Thank you for all the prayers, the meals, and the generosity in so many ways. God is so good. It is so evident His Hand is in this and our Father is showering the Inmans with love. Thank you to each and every person who has contributed in some way.

Time With Friends

I chuckle as I open the microwave and rediscover my coffee cup. There it is! It has been a few hours since I misplaced that thing. This is Alissa again, Nicole’s sister. Nicole and I always laugh when we did the silly stuff our mother did. It’s funny how we just do what our parents did or do, without even realizing it.

I’m leaving tomorrow to see one of the most important people in the world to me–Nicole. Goodness. This lady inspires, lights up, shines, and exhibits the love of Christ. I know God is surrounding her, holding her, and strengthening her. He always has. No matter what fire she goes through, no one would be able to tell. She’s always smiling. So, tomorrow I’m looking forward to seeing that smile. 

 This week, Nicole’s dear friends, Laura and Shelly came over to read scripture and sing hymns. Nicole was in her element. Her eyes glowed and that kind smile radiated. My dad took a video of them reading. Nicole was clenching her exercise ball and nodding. What she was really saying, was “Amen, Praise Jesus or uh-huh.” I can hear it now. That sweet voice, I often heard when I attended church with them. She loved every minute focusing on the Creator of Life. Our Savior. Thanking Him and praising His name above all names.

Psalms 34 says, “I will extol the Lord at all times; his praise will always be on my lips. I will glory in the Lord; let the afflicted hear and rejoice. Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt his name together.”  David reminds us that regardless of our circumstances, our trials, or the fire we are facing; we should praise Him during all life’s storms. He wants us to move in His direction and in order to do that our Faith needs to grow. Trials help us do just that. They aren’t permeant. It’s a refining process, taking out all the imperfections, to make us more like Christ. God is preparing us to get to the destination. Nicole always preached this to me as I faced my own trials. She told me, “give thanks for your trials and if I didn’t have trials, there is something wrong. Trials are God loving you. God is growing your faith through all storms.” She not only preached that, she lives it. She has praised our Savior for the trials and tribulations. She always and still clings to the Creator. For there is no one who can give her strength and comfort, like our King. This journey for Nicole is a fire. It has been calm and then roaring. But, the one thing that has remained consistent is Nicole thanking God for her trials and for her having more Faith in Him than ever before. If that’s not inspiring, I don’t know what is.

When Nicole and I were little our church put on a “Mother and Daughter Tea”–It became a tradition for my grandmother, mother, Nicole, and I to attend. We wore fancy dresses, and hats, and the best china was placed on the table. Nicole and I loved it! What little girl wouldn’t want to use expensive glass cups, and saucers, and eat cookies?!

This past week my mother surprised Nicole by having a “High Tea”. Abbey, Ashton, Scott’s Mom, and two of Nicole’s dearest friends came. These people are her world. They help her keep going. Through the videos and pictures, I could see how much Nicole enjoyed this moment. A special girls day with great conversation. How special! It reminded me of us sitting at that fancy table all dressed up giggling, laughing, and playing tea party. 

Nicole’s sweet former players came to see her this past week. It was a special moment for her. She was smiling and enjoying hearing what was new in their lives. I know it made her day, that they took the time to stop by. The players she has all coached, mean so much to her! Nicole loved pouring into her soccer girls or any of the kids she coached. Through the years, it became a ministry for her. Let’s face it, high school is hard. But for Nicole, she saw it as an opportunity to love these kids. To encourage them, talk with them, and point them in the right direction. 

Prayer requests: Continued prayer for strength and comfort for the Inman family. My siblings and I are all headed to Little Rock this weekend. Prayer for a good time, wonderful memories, and for us to give the family what they need at this time. We love them soooo much!

Praises:  Scott and Nicole had a great appointment in St. Louis. It looks like the treatment is helping and may be some improvement! Praise the Lord! She has been more alert and awake. Thank you for all the prayers, cards, visits, meals, and just the abundant amount of generosity you have shown to The Inman Family. It is overwhelming, the amount of love received. God is so good and will continue to do wondrous things. You can count on it! 

Blessings

Hello! Or maybe I should say, Hello “Ya”ll” I have to laugh at that because most of Nicole’s family resides in Minnesota. So, when she moved to Little Rock she started the southern twang. We always got a kick out of it and my mom buys anything with “ya “ll” on it for her! This is her sister, Alissa, writing. So pardon me, I did not major in Journalism (Like Nicole, have the silliness, or heart that she does!)   

If you are reading this, you have a special place for Nicole, just like I do. She is one of a kind. Not only do her soccer kids look up to her, and her students, but I always have. She is something.

My family moved to Dallas 5 years ago so it has been so great seeing her many times throughout the year. My kids just adore their Aunt Nicole. She has always spoiled them and they look up to their 4 big cousins so much.  I am grateful for the many memories we have had these past few years!

Nicole’s Word For The Day

I wanted to update you on all the “Blessings” Nicole has had lately. I am reminded of the Scripture from Romans 12: 11-12 “Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer. ” Paul is essentially saying here that believers in Christ shouldn’t be lazy in their enthusiasm. We should remain intentional and treat others well in the body of Christ. Well, goodness people!! Nicole is seeing generosity and intentionality among family/friends. She is seeing people serving our Lord, by their actions and love. I think not only has she seen our Father through all of you, but other people have too. It has been so remarkable seeing the church love on her family and the servanthood is pretty amazing to watch!

Phillip Building The Ramp

A week ago Nicole and Scott headed to St.Louis for their first treatment on Avastin and Infusion therapy. Upon returning it was so sweet to see that their neighbor and friend Phillip built a wheelchair ramp made with scripture underneath it. What a remarkable thing! This means so much to Nicole! Do you know when Scott and Nicole built her house, each brick was marked with scripture? She spent weeks writing on them. (They have a lot of bricks!) So I know Nicole is praising Jesus riding up and down it, knowing it has God’s word all over it! And can I just tell you that Phillip also put in an extended shower head! Nicole has fallen so many times, so this is such a blessing. Wow, to see God’s servants at work, is pretty amazing. I can’t tell you how much it means to get the things they need to help with their new normal.

Laura Reading To Nicole

Here is sweet Laura. She comes to Nicole to read her Bible verses every week. Nicole loves that. It has been so hard for her to read anything so when Laura comes, I know there is comfort for Nicole and she is delighted to be reminded of our creator. They have always had a special friendship! Oh, how scripture gives us strength during tough times!  

Nikki Funk Always With A Smile

Ok. This lady…You have all seen her. Nikki Funk. Goodness. Lady. There is nothing Nicole would do without her. When Nicole could speak, it was Nikki this, Nikki that, I’ll call Nikki she’ll take care of it. Yup. Well, Nicole. She is taking care of it. She is fighting with you. And for you when you can’t. These days it’s hard to find good friends. Even in the church. So I cherish their friendship and she is like a family to Nicole. She is there sitting with Nicole from the morning until night. She is such an inspiration for what real friendship and love are all about. I truly admire that and I know Nicole perks up each time, she enters the room!   

Nicole Enjoying A Dilly Bar

Here is a picture of Nicole and her DQ. She is loving EVERY minute of this Dilly Bar! When we were kids my grandparents lived a block away from DQ.  Every summer when we would visit them they would take us to DQ. It was a special treat for us. It was so delicious! Nicole’s favorite DQ has always been the crunch cone. Well, they don’t have those anymore, but she still loves the ice cream at Dairy Queen. Amazing how having small reminders from childhood brings comfort and joy. 


One of the things Nicole told me she has learned about this whole process from receiving the diagnosis to now, is making time for people.  She told me, this diagnosis has made her slow down and created ways to know people she didn’t know that well before. It was a blessing!   She loved having people sit in her living room talking with them as they brought meals over and loving on their family in different ways. She loved every minute getting to know each person walking through that front door. She reminded me she could see how important it is to make time for people and how God wants us to build relationships with others.  She now knew how to pray for each person and what was going on in their life. It was so wonderful for her to pray for others. She has always been a prayer warrior! So, each and every person that has walked in the Inman door, trust me it is putting a smile on her face. She is dancing inside with Joy, that you are there sharing a moment with her. YOU have made her day! 

A Special Sister Bond

Lastly, a few weeks ago I was able to see Nicole and she had more mobility and could put together limited sentences. It was such a special time for me. We laughed, held each other’s hands, and cried together. She has always been so strong!  But through this time I have been reading to her Psalms 91.  What a wonderful scripture being reminded of who God is. He is our protector, our comforter, and a wonderful reminder of  His promise to those who love Him.        

Psalm 91

Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.”

Surely he will save you
    from the fowler’s snare
    and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his feathers,
    and under his wings you will find refuge;
    his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
    nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side,
    ten thousand at your right hand,
    but it will not come near you.
You will only observe with your eyes
    and see the punishment of the wicked.

If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
    and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
    no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
    to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
    you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
    I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
    I will be with him in trouble,
    I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
    and show him my salvation.”

Prayer Requests: Please pray for Scott and Nicole’s upcoming trip to St.Louis. Pray for strength both for her family and her. Pray for comfort. 

Praise: Praise be to Our Father!  Nicole asked me a few weeks ago if I knew how much the treatments were. I did. I knew it was $21,000 per month and at least for now, not covered by insurance. I could see the concern on Nicole’s face. I told her,  ” Don’t worry about the cost. God will provide!

” A huge thank you to all the people who have donated. I’ve cried watching God do amazing things and provide what they need, meals, taking care of Nicole and so much more! He is sooooo goood! 

Nicole Inman’s Medical Expenses

Many have asked about the medical costs that Nicole and Scott are facing. Yesterday we set up a GoFundMe account to assist them in paying some of the medical expenses. Below is a link to their page which provides some of the backgrounds on the need and how you can help.

CLICK ON THIS LINK TO GO TO GOFUNDME PAGE

They have been so blessed by so many people providing meals, reading to Nicole, and just spending time with her. People who they don’t even know have reached out to them and blessed them through their GoFundMe account. Thank you to all who have contributed to date and we are praying that the Lord will return these blessings to you.

Background

Scott and Nicole have developed many close friends in Arkansas. Those that live in other parts of the country may not know much about their background and passion. This article written by one of Scott’s colleagues at Channel 7, KATV, in Little Rock in Oct. 2020 provides background information on Scott, Nicole, and their twin girls.

Scott and Nicole are also blessed with two boys, Garrett, a freshman in college, and Nathan who is in 5th grade. God has played such an important part in their lives, along with church and sports. I remember the times well as Nicole’s Mom and I were at the two-state soccer games and at their house when Nicole suffered her seizure, the event that started this journey in faith.

Check out Sulley’s background article by clicking on the link below the image below:

KATV’s Sully Coach Inman Needs Your Prayer Article

Nicole has claimed alot of scripture during her journey in the last two years. One of the scriptures that we all continue to claim is found in

1 Peter 1:3-7 – “Blessed be the God and Father of our Jesus Christ. According to His great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you rejoice, through now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith – more precious than gold that perishes through it is tested by fire – may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.”

He Has Done Great Things

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He who is mighty has done great things for me, and holy is his name. Luke 1:49

Do you believe God has done great things for YOU?

What if this Christmas Season we were to take every opportunity the Lord gives us to share our personal testimony with someone else about all the “great things” He has done for us? For most of us this is a little out of our comfort zone or perhaps it may seem daunting. Or perhaps truth be told, we feel the not so great things out number the “great things” God may be doing in our lives.

Pain, heartache, hardship, and suffering are real even for believers. They are part of our fallen world. However, our redemption is in the cross and empty tomb. If you are a Child of God, not mater what is going on in in your life, you can lift your eyes upward from your circumstances. God is still the same yesterday  as today. He is sovereign over every moment of your life. He is always giving you a reason for rejoicing, although it may be challenging—even with eyes filled with tears. He is good—and doing great things for you and in you.

When Mary found out she was with child, she had so many reasons for concerns. She did not know how her others would perceive the news. I am sure she was worried and felt some uncertainty–but despite how she felt, she felt her creator was worthy of praise! She did not know how she would tell Joseph. What would he think? What would others think of her? How did God expect her do all this? Perhaps all these concerns she brought to Elizabeth when she stayed with her. We do not know, but what we do know—is Mary exhausted her Father with praise and worthiness. She worshiped Him in her own song. She not only felt gratitude in her own heart, but she expressed it verbally to others.

And Mary said, “My soul magnifies he Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for he has looked on the humble estate of his servant. For behold, from now on all generations will call me blessed; for he who is mighty has done great things for me, and hold is his name. And his mercy is for those who fear him from generation to generation….” Luke 1:46-56

She was overwhelmed, shaken, and filled with gratitude that her Holy God noticed her. She would play a part in the redemption of God’s plan—she worshipped her Creator with admiration and praise. Mary did not let her fear overwhelm her but was grateful to be used by God for His purpose and design, even if it included hardship. The Lord does great things even in difficult seasons! She willingly shared her testimony. How can you share your testimony this Christmas?

The True Light

Jesus Is The True Light

“Keep Christ in CHRISTmas”, is often voiced to others around the Holiday season. During Christmas, it is often hard to slow down. Delightful parties, satisfying food, enchanting decorations, and illuminating lights fill the atmosphere all around us. Often it is hard to truly slow down, to reflect the gift of Heavenly Hope given to us not long ago. The Savior, who is the light of the world, unable to be hidden but revealed to us and live among us. If we imagined that first night, it was not noisy like the world around us, but peaceful and noiseless. The anticipation of a Messiah had arrived! Awaiting to be celebrated immensely and worshiped with reverent attention.

Perhaps it is not the decorations or superficial items that divert us from our worship but grief, disease, hardships, or the burdens we carry. Those items are real. In a moment a telephone call can change our lives. However, the light that was shone for you and I remains the same. God is still the light of the world and living among us. He is still here and in every circumstance. The light that illuminates this Christmas is drawing us toward Him, waiting for us to be diverted from the world. How are you responding to the Hope, He has given you?

A few years ago my sister passed away at Christmas time. I’ll never forget the video of her sent to me by her sweet friend. Nicole was worshiping Christ in her wheelchair. Her eyesight was shattered, but she could still hear the sound of sweet songs. She tapped her fingers, raised her hands, and praised Jesus. The light of life was within her as a heavenly road laid ahead. I often think, “Do I worship the King in the same way? With reverence and admiration, no matter what obstacles I face?” In all reality, God gives us every opportunity to focus on His light, no matter the distractions. It is in those heavy distractions that He wants us near to Him. How can you take away the disruptiveness around you and begin to focus on the quiet night, where God came providing the true light to the world to save YOU?

John 8:12, “When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness but will have the light of life.”

May His light be shown through you this season as you take pleasure in the stillness of His voice. If there is a way for me to pray for you this Christmas, I would love to. Please send me a message, I’d love to be your prayer warrior.

Experiencing Peace This Christmas

In August 2020 I made a surprise visit to go see my sister. Little did I know that visit would be the last time we would have a meaningful and engaged conversation, before she drastically declined from brain cancer. During my visit we talked about death, heaven, cancer, treatment options, and her family. Our conversation was more focused on other people than herself because she was always selfless.  Nicole always radiated Joy everywhere she went.  People always gravitated toward her—she smiled, laughed, and carried herself with grace. No matter how she suffered physically or mentally, she did not complain. She used her situation as God telling her to draw close to Him.  In fact, during the hardest moments she carried this superior peace amid her uncertainty on earth.

John 14: 27 says, “Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Don’t let your heart be troubled or fearful.”

We don’t have to look far in our world to find discord and conflict. It is everywhere filled with chaos, fear, and anxiety.  It is hard to imagine a world possible full of peace, that Jesus promises. The disciples had a hard time believing this peace Jesus was providing, when he said he was returning to His Father. They thought he came to provide peace from their enemies and set a kingdom He would rule, and perhaps they would have some authority. But Jesus was never referring to the peace, the disciples understood. Jesus was specifying to an internal peace, living inside us for all those that choose to follow Him daily.

God provides a peace that is unconditional and everlasting through those who believe in Him. Our Lord provides a wonderful Counselor, Comforter, and Advocate —The Holy Sprit that can guide us through our storms, no matter what we encounter. This peace Christ provides is offered daily as we experience the Holy Spirit working in us.  It doesn’t mean we won’t experience challenges, but we can have peace because God is not only with us but within us! The good news is God provides the reality that peace will be restored with His creation, one day. Isn’t this what we long for? How can you discover peace this Christmas? Can you find time away from the worldly busyness and experience the presence of the Holy Spirit?

Philippians 4:7 “And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”  

My prayer for you friend, is that no matter what obstacles you face this Christmas you can obtain peace in the ONE who desires you to discover His presence in you.

Update on Nicole’s Kids:

Garrett: Talking to Garrett is always a treat. He very knowledgeable about God, worldview, and just a kind young man. My kids just love seeing him! He is living in an apartment now and currently working at his church.

Abbey: This lovely lady is planning her wedding and will be walking down the aisle next month to Spencer! We are so excited to see them say their vows and continue in the direction God has for them. They are such a cute couple and I am excited to see what God has in store for them in the future. Spencer has been working with Fellowship of Christian Athletes. He is currently going into schools, loving his job, and doing awesome at it! Abbey had a great year in soccer. The team went to the NCAA Tournament! She has one more year left! Yikes!

Ashton: This sweet girl did a great job in soccer this year! However, early in the season she tore her ACL. She is recovering doing rehab and looking forward to a great season next year! She is currently dating a lovely young man, Eli. (I’m waiting to meet him and have them visit us!!!)

Nathan: This little guy is not no little anymore! My buddy turned 14 this year! Where did the time go? He was our ring bear in our wedding, walking down the aisle with no shoes! (He did not want to wear shoes) HA! Now this kid is excelling in piano and in theatre. I can’t wait to see him perform soon!

Nicole would be so proud of these kids. May they continue to Love the Lord in all they do and glorify Him. They are great examples for the next generation!

Being Used By God in Our Storms

Storms always frightened me when I was little.   My family had a small cabin up in northern Minnesota and the storms there terrified me. The cabin did not have a basement, but a small crawl space that was accessible from outside, to be used during storms.  Let me tell you, as a kid my siblings and I were deathly afraid of what was in there. There could be all sorts of little critters running around, but you couldn’t see them! I remember the anticipation and nervousness to get to the shelter and waiting the storm out–it felt long. I don’t know about you, but I still do not like storms. BUT just like the storms that bring rain, which water the earth AND are exactly what the earth needs; The storms that we go through, are so good for us too AND often what we need too. God strengthens our faith during storms when we allow Him to—FAITH is WHAT you believe. Believing HIS promises and trusting Him when there is uncertainty.

I love reading about Paul’s ministry. No matter what he was going through, he had faith in the Lord. The Holy Spirit filled in so much that he exulted boldness in every situation. He had confidence in sharing the gospel when people were against him, hated him, and even wanted to kill him.  He also had certainty in God’s plan when he was in prison and did not waste his time there. He continued to share the good news. He had boldness in each storm, that God was eventually going to get him to Rome on His time. In fact, God had Paul right where He needed him to be—in a one weatherly storm on ship with fellow prisoners, where people heard him speak boldly about God.

In Acts 27 Paul was finally setting sail to Rome. There was a huge storm at sea with 276 passengers aboard the ship. I don’t need to tell you ships did not have the technology like today or were built like today. The ship caught a hold of a “northeaster” wind, which was a deadly wind, and the passengers were all scared that this ship was going to go to sink in the sandbar. I bet there was so much commotion on the ship among the people, all fearing for their lives. However, Paul extolled confidence that God would get each of them to land safely.

Acts 27: 22-26 says21 After they had gone a long time without food, Paul stood up before them and said: “Men, you should have taken my advice not to sail from Crete; then you would have spared yourselves this damage and loss. 22 But now I urge you to keep up your courage, because not one of you will be lost; only the ship will be destroyed. 23 Last night an angel of the God to whom I belong and whom I serve stood beside me 24 and said, ‘Do not be afraid, Paul. You must stand trial before Caesar; and God has graciously given you the lives of all who sail with you.’ 25 So keep up your courage, men, for I have faith in God that it will happen just as he told me. 26 Nevertheless, we must run around on some island.”

There is so much we can learn in this passage from Paul. God calls each of us to trust Him in the stormiest seasons of life, while encouraging others to do the same. Paul’s attitude wasn’t arrogance but boldness to trust God more than logic or emotions. Luke doesn’t say every emotion Paul felt,  but I am sure he had some doubt and fear on the ship. However, Paul let the Holy Spirit direct his emotions to trust God, while encouraging others. We know Paul listened to God. Our Maker sent an angel to encourage Paul in a dangerous storm, that empowered Paul with HOLY boldness to speak words of encouragement whether they were welcome or not. The people on the ship were for him (almost a gift)—God wanted Paul to use this opportunity to show everyone who was in control of the ship and their lives. That no matter what “storm” they may face, He will be in charge—and to take hold and have faith in God. Do you think when Paul took his eyes off the physical storm around him and focused on encouraging the passengers to  have faith in God,  his own emotions of the storm lightened? I do. When we are in the most difficult things, focusing more on others and less on ourselves increases our faith, while our relationship with Christ grows. That’s the thing, no matter what we face or what obstacle that seems like it will never end, God has us there for a reason. Nicole enjoyed praying for others, while she suffered through radiation. Each day she put the mask on, she chose to focus on others verse herself. She spent time praying for each person that had things going on, verse praying for herself. Truly, she did not like the mask and dreaded it each time, but she was there and chose to use that opportunity to pray for others. I think much like Paul chose to encourage others, while he might have been freighted on the boat; He felt more confidence in our Creator because he focused on what others needed resulting on growing his relationship with Christ. I am sure Paul felt closer to God too as he chose to be used by God during a difficult time for others. I know sometimes we do not like our circumstances and sometimes they can make us paralyzed, but what if we stopped asking “Why me?” Instead asking —Lord, “Use me”–help me boldly trust you and your direction to encourage others around me even if I am in this storm.

“Not only that, but we rejoice in our suffering, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”  Romans 5: 3-5

“Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing. ” 1 Thessalonians 5:11

A little update on Nicole’s kids:

Garrett: He just graduated! Can you believe it?!! He came to visit my family this past May. He lives in an apartment, works a his church, and trusting God for his next direction. We had a great time exploring our farm together. (HE is single!!) No really. I give him a hard time about finding a girlfriend. He is a great kid that loves the lord and I love talking with him. HE is so knowledgeable about worldview and a hard working kid. He is such a sweet young man!

Abbey and Ashton: They just finished their sophomore year of college. They continue to play soccer and are both working at a preschool church program this summer. They both love kids! Abbey recently became engaged to a wonderful young man, Spencer. Abbey and Spencer came to visit me during their spring break. It was a joy for me to meet Spencer. Nicole would be so thrilled to have Spencer a part of her family. He loves the lord and is passionate about sharing the gospel to college students. I am looking forward to watching Abbey and Spencer serve the Lord together! Ashton is doing well and has the same boyfriend. I am looking forward to them visiting soon!

Nathan: My little buddy is growing up!! He continues to love piano and cook. He was able to come on his spring break too with Abbey and Spencer. We made macaroons together and did many art projects (which he loves). One of my favorite parts of our visit was celebrating Nicole’s birthday. We went around the room and said what she taught us and memories.

How can I pray for you? Please send me a message. I would love to pray with you and for you!

Our Family at the cabin, when we were young. There are two siblings to Nicole that have not been born yet.

Suffering Well

Every Christmas we take our kids up to our cabin in Minnesota to enjoy God’s lovely creation of snow and spend time with family! The snow is beautiful. The kids enjoy playing for hours in the snow, going ice skating, and doing “snow experiments”. Last Christmas when we were up in Minnesota, we encountered days of -30 below. It was cold! The kids looked outside and desperately wanted to go out, but it was just way too cold. We couldn’t go anywhere either for the fear of being stranded and that would be a bad situation. So, I put on my “mom” cap and began planning things to do inside with 8 little kids! We did not anticipate days of -30 when we planned our trip!

God gives us seasons we don’t expect or anticipate too. They hit us sometimes when we didn’t see it coming. I truly believe God shows us so much when we suffer, and He uses it for something good. Our suffering usually isn’t self-inflicted, but rather just a result of our sinful world and it not being perfect.  Our Creator gives us opportunities to get off the couch and do something, but only when we spend time listening. It’s like He’s waving His hands, trying to get our attention.  He’s saying, “Hey, you… are you listening to me? Stop talking and just listen! Be quiet!”

Three years ago, was one of the most shaping experiences. God started refining me in ways, I never imagined. But HE needed to— I was pregnant with my twins and was so excited to have twin girls, just like my sister.  Randy and I took a mini vacation and as I sat on the beach, we received a phone call saying my sister had brain cancer.  My heart hurt for her, but I knew she would draw close to our Creator. She didn’t complain about her condition. She knew He was using her suffering for something good. She put on the armor of God and was ready. We anticipated God would heal her. She had faith that God would heal her, and it was going to be a journey, where she would draw close to our Father. As years and procedures passed, we realized God was going to heal her in heaven.

The year before her death was hard to watch as her body was slowly shutting down. I felt terrible for her. My heart hurt for her. I would pray for her all day and was up many nights, praying. “Lord, take her home. Please stop her physical suffering.”  I knew she would be healed, and she would meet our father face to face. Through her illness and what God was showing her, she thrived. She used her illness to draw people closer to our father. Many people’s relationship with our Lord grew as a result of watching her share, Jesus. It was in her suffering she gloried God and she did it well. Her kids saw how strong she was in the Lord and let me tell you, seeing her suffer well grew their faith.

This “season” in my life, it hurt. I drew close to God for comfort and relied on Him, as His plans have always been far better than my own. Still today, I don’t want to forget what He showed me, and I intend not too. In my hurt for my sister, God sent a clear picture to me. IT IS NOT ABOUT ME! Life is not about me, about my stuff, about what I want. It’s about our father. It’s about leading people into His kingdom and to stand up for Him when our world is full of darkness and chaos.  It is about raising warriors to fight for Him and for them to pass the same on to the next generation.

 As I sat there one night writing for my sister, God told me to get off the couch. Stop being lazy. There is no excuse. Give Me the wheel. He had better things planned and use my suffering for something good.  I don’t know what He has planned for me, or for my family. But I will tell you this, I want to be listening and I do not to miss out on the opportunities He shows me. He’s in charge and i don’t want to be! How we listen to God in our suffering, impacts how we respond to our suffering.

I am not sure what you may be going through right now. Perhaps it’s a disagreement with a spouse, divorce, finances, a loss of a loved one, or an illness. We all suffer in different ways and our suffering cannot be compared to another person’s suffering. BUT how we respond during our hard times is when God can change us and use our suffering in ways we never imagined. Perhaps you don’t know how God can use you. Start praying, my friend. Start praying. Surrender to God in it all and tell Him you are willing to be His servant in any way.

I sat there one night and said, “Lord, send me. Send us. Use my family and show us how we can serve you. Every blessing you have given Randy and I, has come from you. Use what you have given to grow your kingdom. “I don’t want to forget when times were hard, I want to cling to what God showed me and told me. I want Him to continue to write my story and Him be gloried in the process. In the story of Hezekiah, it’s unfortunate He forgot.

Hezekiah was miraculously healed by God. He pleaded with God to heal him. God heard his cry and healed him, and our Lord told him He would add 15 years to his life

He was a king that loved the Lord. But he forgot what God had done for him and let his pride get in the way

Isaiah 39 says, “Soon after this, Merodach-baladan son of Baladan, king of Babylon, sent Hezekiah his best wishes and a gift. He had heard that Hezekiah had been very sick and that he had recovered. Hezekiah was delighted with the Babylonian envoys and showed them everything in his treasure-houses—the silver, the gold, the spices, and the aromatic oils. He also took them to see his armory and showed them everything in his royal treasuries! There was nothing in his palace or kingdom that Hezekiah did not show them

Then Isaiah the prophet went to King Hezekiah and asked him, “What did those men want? Where were they from

Hezekiah replied, “They came from the distant land of Babylon

“What did they see in your palace?” asked Isaiah

“They saw everything,” Hezekiah replied. “I showed them everything I own— even my royal treasuries

Then Isaiah said to Hezekiah, “Listen to this message from the Lord of Heaven’s Armies: ‘The time is coming when everything in your palace—all the treasures stored up by your ancestors until now—will be carried off to Babylon. Nothing will be left,’ says the Lord. ‘Some of your very own sons will be taken away into exile. They will become eunuchs who will serve in the palace of Babylon’s king.’

Then Hezekiah said to Isaiah, “This message you have given me from the Lord is good.” For the king was thinking, “At least there will be peace and security during my lifetime

There is so much to learn from this part of Hezekiah’s story. He could have shared how God healed Him, but instead he chose to show the king of Babylon his treasures. Now, his “stuff” wasn’t his anyway!!!! God gave it all to him.

My heart hurts for the last part, Hezekiah did not care about the future generations, but just about the moment. He didn’t focus on the Lord and the future impact of his decisions. He was living in the moment with pride, overconfidence, and forgetting God’s sovereign plan. The Lord God had healed him, but when the urgent crisis ended, he seemed to get caught up in possessions. God wants us to be His servant in all we do and with whatever He gives us. Nothing on earth is ours, it’s His. Are there idols or things in your heart, that need to be changed? Do you care about the next generation or are too consumed with yourself? Hezekiah didn’t grieve for his offspring or seem too concerned about his legacy but instead reveled in his own comfort. How are you letting God write your story? Are you in control or are you letting God drive the wheel?

We recently had Nicole’s kids up at our cabin. It was a joy. A pure blessing. My sister would have loved it here and I couldn’t wait to show her all of God’s wonderful creation that is seen up there. Her kids are so sweet and have a very special place in my heart. We had so much fun going on the lake, fishing, doing crafts and talking. I loved sharing stories of their mom and reminding them what her mission was while on earth. It never was about stuff or about her, it was about sharing Jesus with everyone and making an impact on the next generation. Their mother did an amazing job being an example of serving our Lord and bringing people to Jesus.  May her kids continue pursuing His kingdom and not the world.

All 4 kids came to our cabin and also saw their uncles, Aunts, and grandparents too. I loved spending time with each of them. Garrett is growing to be a warrior for Jesus. We need more kids like him in the next generation. He is passionate about Jesus, and he is very knowledgeable in worldview and what is going on in the world. I am waiting for his Podcast to come out soon! We definitely will be sharing that with you all! He is making an impact on his generation! His mother would be smiling at the fine young man he is becoming.

Abbey and Ashton are starting their sophomore year of college. YES, I said that right! Can you believe it??!! They are doing quite well and enjoying soccer. I can’t wait to watch them this year! They are in a social club and have made some great friends. They too have a great passion for Jesus. I love watching them grow. They both remind me so much of Nicole.

Nathan is my little buddy. It was a joy to have him up at the cabin and to see him interact with his cousins. He is such a special boy. He is learning and following his older siblings. He is growing up so fast! He starts middle school this year

I apologize for not writing on this blog for a while. My family has been busy with our farm, and we have been diligently praying about how God can use us in different ways. Follow us on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/hopefarmsec or sign up for our newsletter. Find out about what we have been up to. I do have a blog for our farm if you would like to follow us.  Please visit our site! Hope Farms and Education Center or sign up for our newsletter at hopefarmsec.com.  If you have a prayer request, please let me know.

Garrett: Please pray for him as he finishes his last year in college. He has been busy working and getting his Pod Cast going.

Abbey and Ashton: Pray for a great year for them as they start the soccer year and the next year of school. They have had such a great summer. Both of the girls have been babysitting, working at a camp, and going on a great vacation with Scott to Aruba.

Nathan: Please pray for Nathan as he transitions to a new school. Pray for the right friends. He has been doing very well and I loved seeing his sweet smile and hearing his laughter this summer.