It has been a pretty crazy week. To think that I have only 4 more days – 4 more days of treatment is crazy. Where did the time go? I have to say, I am probably just now starting to feel some of the symptoms or drain of the treatment. I am a little more tired sometimes and having an acid type feeling that comes up and burns every once in a while. I am thankful that the Lord continues to fight for me and has held me up each and every day. Thank you for the continued prayers. Now, I am starting to think about life beyond my getting up and going to treatment every day and waiting to come back the next. I have been so blessed by the people up there and their care for me, that I will miss them and the laughs we’ve had. Love you guys!
My parents have been in town all week so they have come up to treatments and been able to see what all goes on up there. It’s a blessing to meet new people and to hear their stories … it’s also great to give God the glory and to see how many people up there are focused on Him during this time. It’s like a mini church sermon and praise and worship session.
Took this pic this morning of my chemo pill. So, some have asked and I probably haven’t explained too well… but I take a chemo pill about 45 minutes before radiation and then I also take the pill on the weekends. When I am done with radiation I’ll get a break from the pill until after the scans and then more than likely will take the pill once a month for a week until ???? don’t know that. But yes I have to wear a glove to handle this pill.
This week has been a little crazy! Girls were at soccer camp and came home and crashed! They loved UCA and hanging with their buds and meeting new people. Nathan was a chatty box this week-probably because girls were gone. He was busy talking to me about everything, he likes to come out on the deck and hear some of what I’m reading and then unpack everything he’s thinking about. His biggest thing all week was he wanted to cook me breakfast. He didn’t understand I get up earlier than him to be with the Lord and I eat early so I can stay on schedule. Well he wanted to make me fried eggs, so he made me and my dad fried eggs one morning. So sweet. Grandpa said he would take him for ice cream if he did 4 chores, so he was busy doing all kinds of things. He and my mom organized a closet and put together all of the baby puzzles. My mom made Kale “chips” and Nathan actually tried them, didn’t like them thus the face that looks like he’s choking, but he tried them. He’s a crazy little kid.
Also so blessed by so many visitors bringing dinner and stopping by to chat. Love seeing and being blessed by so many. Thank you all so much for the food and the prayers. Had fun seeing the Lorios and the Humphreys – beautiful flowers (below) – I don’t always remember to take pics! Thankfully Scott reminds me when he’s around. We were blessed by our neighbors the Greens – no picture 🙁 and Nathan has been running around wild with his little buddy (their son) Soren.
Some new things this week…. SOCCER Training begins….school organization is about official….Hope Warrior shirts are in….treatment ends…..Yeah!
“Let my teaching fall like rain and my words descend like dew, like showers on new grass, like abundant rain on tender plants.”
Deuteronomy 32:2
I have to admit, every time I sit and read the Bible I am always sitting there thinking I could write about this…and then I move on to the next book of the Bible I’m reading and I think, wow blow me away. I wish I could just sit and talk, share and grow with each of you everyday. You all have no idea…and I have no idea who all is reading this… but you have encouraged me in this fight and kept me focused where I need to be. Not on me, but on Him and allowing Him to speak whatever He desires through me. I am blessed – blessed.
Reading in 2 Chronicles about King Jehoshaphat who was King of Judah who started out following after the Lord hard. After war and time he was told that the Lord was angry with him because he was helping the wicked and hating those who loved the Lord. He could’ve responded any way he wanted to, this seer that came to him could’ve been killed on the spot. But, when the seer came to King J and told him what was about to happen, this is what he did…
“Jehoshaphat lived inJerusalem, but he went out among the people, traveling from Beersheba to the hill country of Ephraim, encouraging the people to return to the Lord, the God of their ancestors.” He went out and appointed judges and told them how to judge and to “Fear the Lord”….These were his instructions to them: “You must always act in the fear of the Lord, with faithfulness and an undivided heart” He said that in vs 7 and 9.
What is so encouraging and challenging to me about King J here in these passages, there are so many of us who don’t respond the way he did. He responded humbly and ready to move forward in God’s will. He didn’t make excuses on why certain things should be done or why he wasn’t following the Lord. He listened and then obeyed right away. How often am I guilty of talking myself into why I did things a certain way or why I am not walking in the Lord’s will at the time because I want to do what I want to do? King J got the news and set about changing what he was doing and what was going on in the entire kingdom.
After this a few kingdoms declared war on King J and he was told that more armies were coming. In chapter 20 it says he was terrified and he begged the Lord for guidance and commanded that everyone begin fasting. People came to Jerusalem from everywhere because they wanted to seek the Lord’s help.
King J stands in front of the people and says
“Lord, the God of our ancestors, are you not the God who is in heaven? You rule over all the kingdoms of the nations. Power and might are in your hand, and no one can withstand you.7 Our God, did you not drive out the inhabitants of this land before your people Israel and give it forever to the descendants of Abraham your friend? 8 They have lived in it and have built in it a sanctuary for your Name, saying, 9 ‘If calamity comes upon us, whether the sword of judgment, or plague or famine, we will stand in your presence before this temple that bears your Name and will cry out to you in our distress, and you will hear us and save us.’
I love so much about this heart wrenching real prayer. He was humble and brought back what King J knew was true about God, what He had already done in the past. And then in the end the TRUST in knowing that no matter what we see or have happen YOU WILL SAVE US. As the armies got closer and the fighting seemed to be close at hand….
14 Then the Spirit of the Lord came on Jahaziel son of Zechariah, the son of Benaiah, the son of Jeiel, the son of Mattaniah, a Levite and descendant of Asaph, as he stood in the assembly.
15 He said: “Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the Lord says to you: ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s. 16 Tomorrow march down against them. They will be climbing up by the Pass of Ziz, and you will find them at the end of the gorge in the Desert of Jeruel.17 You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.’”
They are told not to be afraid twice and that they will not have to even fight. The Lord would be with them. Now here’s where I would’ve liked to have had a front row seat….
20 Early in the morning they left for the Desert of Tekoa. As they set out, Jehoshaphat stood and said, “Listen to me, Judah and people of Jerusalem! Have faith in the Lord your God and you will be upheld; have faith in his prophets and you will be successful.” 21 After consulting the people, Jehoshaphat appointed men to sing to the Lord and to praise him for the splendor of his[c] holiness as they went out at the head of the army, saying:
“Give thanks to the Lord,
for his love endures forever.”
22 As they began to sing and praise, the Lord set ambushes against the men of Ammon and Moab and Mount Seir who were invading Judah, and they were defeated.
Can you imagine the singers dancing and shouting and no one fighting and the Lord himself set ambushes to fight God’s enemies. They all returned and were overjoyed because they had been given victory by God, from their enemies.
When I think about how amazing this experience must have been, I can’t discount how I’ve seen God do amazing things in my life where He has done all the work and battled for me and I have just been changed through it. This journey I am on is one of them. I am thankful that God stands and fights and that He has promised to take down my enemies and all I have been asked to do is believe.
My mom was looking through her summer Bible study while she was here todayand sharing with me where she read verses or quotes that made her think of me. She read me this one from a book by Oswald Chambers quoted by F. Bruce and I thought, yes guys – that is my heart’s desire.
“My goal is God Himself, not joy, nor peace, Nor even blessing, but Himself, my God; ‘Tis His to lead me there, not mine, but His – ‘At any cost, dear Lord, by any road.'”
Here are some ways you can pray for me:
- Pray that my fatigue will not increase and I am asking God to fight against it and allow me to press forward in what He’s called me to
- Pray for good sleep in the next few weeks before school
- Pray that I am focused on what I need to do so I feel ready to begin
- Pray that in these last 4 sessions of radiation that the Lord eliminates what remains – only God!
- Pray that I am given God appointments the final days I’m at CARTI here to honor Him and share His glory
Bless you warriors!